Shortly after I was diagnosed, I had a nightmare that involved diabetes. I dreamed that I had snuck out in the middle of the night to go to a bar. But not just any bar, a bar that served nothing but CAKES! I remember being drawn to this one in particular, an Oreo cake--a circular white cake with Oreo cookie crumbles all over it. I felt guilty for even being there, being diabetic and all. Even though I was told at my first meeting with my CDE that I could have cake, as long as I take insulin for it. Diabetes was taking over my subconscious!
And last night, I had another nightmare. I dreamed that I sat down at a nice Italian restaurant when Constance starting blaring at me that I was HIGH. I went to the bathroom to check and apparently I was so high that my ketone strips started BEEEEEEEPing, as well! I tried to discretely walk back to my table, but my CGM kept beeping and I felt like crap (in my dream). I remember thinking I didn't care how high I was, I was going to enjoy my big bowl of pasta and would deal with the consequences later. I was relieved when I woke up this morning to find out I was a little low, 65 mg/dL.
Has this ever happened to anyone else?! Please tell me so that I don't feel like a complete looney. Diabetes seems to be at the center of my attention every waking moment. But does it have to be so in my sleep, too?!
Holly,
ReplyDeleteYou are completely NORMAL! I too have had diabetes nightmares and oddly enouhg, I too end up waking up with low blood sugar. No explanation for that one, but ugh it sucks when it happens.
Most recently I had a double whammy, I dreamed that I was cheating on my bf AND we were eating everything loaded wtih extra sugar. My insulin pump couldn't keep up so it quit on me entirely (dont have a CGM)and my glucose monitor refused to prick my fingers (weird) as in, it had human like characteristics.
Needless to say, I woke up feeling guilty about my relationship AND about my diabetes all together. AND both felt as though they'd actually happened.
You are not crazy, you're completely normal.
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