Yesterday was my 5th anniversary of being diagnosed with type 1 diabetes. Given that fact, I probably didn't "celebrate" in the way I should have. I didn't have anything truly "bolus worthy" like a cupcake, nor did I really make a big deal out of it other than a Twitter update. In fact, yesterday was more reflective than anything, surrounded by my normal Sunday activities--church, laundry, and some light Christmas shopping.
Thinking back to that day, more than anything I'm extremely grateful. I'm grateful that I made it through diabetic ketoacidosis and surviving a blood sugar above 1400 mg/dL. I'm grateful that I've avoided any complications to date, even if my diabetes is still young--I will continue to celebrate that fact as long as it's true. I'm grateful that I've managed this disease on my own from the very beginning with an average A1c of 6.5%. I'm grateful that I haven't let this disease define who I am, and never will.
Diabetes is hard and diabetes sucks, big time! I've certainly had my breakdown moments, like when I threw my CGM across the room when I was over 400 mg/dL (thank you, bad insulin). And I don't want to count the number of times I've gone to bed crying into my husband's arms because of a stupid number. These moments happen and will happen again, and I've learned that they need to happen because it's my nature to be emotional and let things blow once in awhile. I can't be ashamed of my tears, because they remind me that I need to rely on God.
I hope to be here another 50 years with this disease. Maybe there will be a cure, maybe not. Personally, I'm not holding my breath. Right now, I just want to celebrate the fact that I AM HERE, when I shouldn't be. So many things in this life don't matter. But those that do matter, I want to celebrate. I want to celebrate my family who poured over me in love in those first few weeks after my diagnosis. I want to celebrate my wonderful husband whose arms are the safest place in the world. I want to celebrate my friends and everyone in the DOC.
I want to celebrate simply because I can, and that's something worth celebrating.
DISCLAIMER: I am not a doctor, nurse, certified diabetes educator (CDE) or any medical professional of any kind. (But I did stay at a Holiday Inn Express!) Therefore, please do not use any of my postings as medical fact. I am simply a blogger expressing my highs and lows (pun intended) with diabetes. For changes in your medication, exercise regiment, or diet please consult a qualified physician.