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Friday, November 19, 2010

Frustrated.

I don't know what's been going on the past two days, but I'm pretty sure my average over that time is close to 180-200 mg/dL.  It's so frustrating because I have no idea why.  I have my suspects, like the homemade enchiladas that have an even more delayed carb hit than pizza.  This left me waking up yesterday at 326 mg/dL, lovely.  What's even more frustrating is that I was above my high threshold for more than six hours!  Why didn't I wake up?!  I was so defeated that I debated skipping breakfast, but I decided that if I kept drinking water as well then I could still eat.  This led to me bottoming out to 57 mg/dL by the time I got to work.  I kept bouncing from low to high the rest of the day. 

But it wasn't just the enchiladas, but I'm noticing that I'm spiking in the mid-afternoon.  Yesterday I went to a luncheon at work where a box lunch was provided.  Chicken salad sandwich, potato chips, and a chocolate chip cookie.  I totally SWAGed bolus 8 units, and I wound up at 150 mg/dL two hours later, but then I started spiking up to 233 mg/dL.  Holy delayed carbs, Batman!  I just feel so frustrated that I can't be a "regular" person who can enjoy enchiladas and a box lunch within a 24-hour time span without it sending me to the 200s. 

I know that I just need to get things back in control with proper carb counting and eating foods that aren't so loaded with fat that leads to delayed carbs.  Usually after days like these, I go on a guilt-ridden Atkins diet to try and get my average back down.  But I know that's not the right thing to do because it will just lead to a carb binge later on.  What's even scarrier about all this is that Thanksgiving is next week, and I'm scared to even think about bolusing for that. 

I really am trying to keep my A1c in check, and now I feel like I've completely ruined my 6.3 from last month.  It's so hard not to cry when things like this happen.  I wish there was some brilliant conclusion to this post about how diabetes is a marathon, not a sprint, and two bad days doesn't mean I'm doomed for my life.  But sometimes it's so freaking frustrating, and I feel so vulnerable. 

5 comments:

  1. It happens to all of us. :/ You'll get back where you wanna be. It IS frustrating. But this too shall pass.

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  2. I HATE that! I had really similar issues a couple of weeks ago, and it was so defeating. I felt like such a failure.

    I am also a bit nervous about Thanksgiving. I think someone needs to publish a survival guide. I need strategies! It's my first Thanksgiving with the 'betes. I feel like I'm going into battle unprepared.

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  3. Air hug!

    Don't let a rough patch get you down - you're very on top of things, and I know you'll spring back.

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  4. That's a great point about the high fat foods that delay carb absorption. It's so hard to be near perfect all the time. Seriously, each day is a clean slate regardless of what you did or how tight your control was the day before. Each day is a challenge to maintain excellent control. One good month or day, is just that. Keeping tight control over the long run is the biggest challenge of all. You aren't alone. Those spikes happen to everyone with diabetes. Thanks for sharing!

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  5. Agreed with Tony Rose. Those spikes happen to all of us, and it really is all about tight control over the long run. I have had a sub-6 A1c for a while now, but I definitely have crappy diabetes days like that as well, and it really doesn't affect the overall big picture. But I also beat myself up over it even though I know it isn't worth it. What happened happened. You're doing the best you can, and tomorrow is a new day. You're doing such a GREAT job and I bet your next A1c will be just as good if not better! :) (PS- My delayed middle of the night spike from yesterday's pizza was no fun....boo!)

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